Approaching a New Phase

I have a confession to make. For the last couple of months I have been feeling burned out from doing foster care. The boys lie. They are always in my business. They look at my daughters (like most teen boys, but this is in their home) and make them feel uncomfortable. We decide to not renew our license because then the state HAS to move them. I gave notice of that 2 weeks ago.

One will be leaving on November 6th, but he doesn't know it. I can't tell him because he will do things to ruin our home, appliances, etc. He recently mistreated my $900 front loading washing machine and we had to call out a repair man so I could do laundry. $200 later. . .

Another foster son mistreated our dishwasher and it is costing $180 to fix it. Ugh!!!

Their rooms stink. Horribly. No matter what we do they smell. I know teen boys smell bad. I had two in one room the whole time they lived at home. I am just tired of it.

I am tired of the lies. Not being where they say they will. Trying to asphyxiate themselves and then lying about slipping on water. Saying that others are doing things that they are not, just because they think I won't notice what they are trying to get away with.

I don't want to work when I get home from work anymore. I've let my boss know that I want full-time status and we are almost there with client numbers/billable hours.

So no matter what, by January 31st it will be just the Hubs, me and our girls. So nice to just to go and do what we need without having our every move questioned by teenage boys or my having to watch them so closely I can't enjoy myself.

This will be the first holiday season in 2 years without foster kids. I am so excited. My awesome nephew will be joining us and my son's father-in-law. Nephew's mom is going to take care of her mom in Arizona. It's the anniversary of his father's death so he wants to be close to home. We are happy to have him. FIL's family is all in Northern California and he can't travel with his work schedule, so we are hosting him. He is a pretty decent dude.

So excited to wake up on Christmas and not have to worry about if they will like what we got them. We have had complaints the past years. Trying to figure out what to get these kids isn't easy. Needless to say, it's worn on me.

BUT I am so excited now. Bring on the holidays!!!!